Back to reality…..

Its my second day back at work and back to reality, I am finding it hard to snap right back into things…I have this void feeling now and i konw i have truely left more than half my heart back in South Africa. It is good to be home…there is nothing like the comforts of HOME….I am continuing to seek God and his plan and purpose for me…these post college years are probably the most trying ones i have yet to experience. My main foucus is to really know what exactly I was to learn from my experience and how I can channel the things i saw and the lessons i learned over there. As to be expected this was a life changing trip….and now i am trying to adapt and practice all things that I relized i needed to change about my daily life as well as inspire others to “be the change” as well. One of my teamates who went to Africa with me said that if you want transformation for a group of people, a nation, a mentality, etc you must be the first to transform….from there its contagious……Totally…such a great truth….I hope that you will all see the transformation and rennovation that happened in me and be inspired as I was. I am never planning on insisting or cramming anything at you or on you….I just hope that you too will see not only the ways we can help with these third world countries but help the people in our own backyards and our own lifes. I am planning on “unventing” my life in everyway possible so that i can focus on what really important and have the ability to help on a whim whenever needed mentally financially spirtually and emotionally…..SO The weather sucks it totally zapped me I totally wasnt expecting the heat which i should have duh its june…and the smoke my goodness my allergies are going haywire. lol……….its been fun catching up with friends, sharing stories and pictures seeing exciting changes in there life’s and circumstances……I did miss the girl time for sure My cousin is getting married this weekend should be a fun wedding….I am in it which will make this number 14 I believe..(someday I’ll have a movie made about me) ha I love how i am referred to as the “almost 27 dresses girl” ha I love it though there fun and i dont have to make the big commitment just the 200 for the dress and shoes lol plus this one should be fun fun because she’s marrying a Fireman so yes be jealous a wedding full of single firemen  (unless of course they all get called away to the fires dang lol) good times good times…..So life goes on as I knew it…BUSY BUSY BUSY and Busy…but oh so fun so complicated and so intriguing…..I know these next few month especially are going to be used for a lot by God for refining, reflecting, molding and stretching i am buckled up and ready for the ride and excited to see how my trip to Africa will play into my everyday life back here at home!